Stream of consciousness

That’s what I want to do. Take off and know that I’m fast enough and versatile and I can fluctuate within the confines of any situation thrown at me. It’s the little thoughts of not knowing that keep us from reaching our full potential. 

Everyone wants to slow down and think but there’s no need for that. Our brain is so powerful and so adaptable and crammed with information that we will never know what is in there collecting dust. I’m doing better about trusting that instinct and locking in. I perform better that way. Everyone performs better that way. I have to realize my full potential so that others will be inspired to do the same. If you want to be an inspiration then you have to live a life that inspires others to do the same. 

To get off the couch and get into the game. Everyone is waiting for an invitation or motivation and the truth is they have all the tools and inspiration to get after it. If they would trust their own ambition they would take off like a rocket. I’m honestly kind of amazed at how clear these thoughts are. They may not melt perfectly together but they are much clearer and still as rapid as the ones I had yesterday when I got after those three-thousand words. 

It was a nice exercise but at the end of the day it was pure word vomit. This is a little more cohesive and it feels better doing it this way. Maybe it’s the keyboard. I feel more at home typing on my personal computer than the one on the work desk. I doubt it. 

I think over the past week I’ve been collecting my thoughts better than before and channeling things in a positive way. I know the reason but for now I’ll keep it to myself. I hate to admit that I’m playing a game. I don’t want to play a game. I want things to be real and authentic. 

Authenticity seems like an inauthentic ideal that I’ve latched on to. But I do think it is a vital part of being happy. You can’t act upon the opinions of others unless they are directly in line with your truth. Not everyone is going to agree with your decisions but you are the one that will have to live with them. And you have to keep reminding yourself of this. Every day. If she likes you then so be it, if she hates you then so be it. 

If they want to be your friend and give you business or give you love then yay. Be happy about it but if they don’t, be happy about it, too. You don’t need that kind of negativity in your life anyways. Being real is accepting that things are not always great and sometimes you’re going to feel like a piece of crap but you have to get a hold of those feelings quickly, figure out why and figure out a way to put a positive spin on them. I’m doing better about that. I honestly laugh at myself when this happens. Because I realize that I’m on my way to being overwhelmed and then it clicks that life is still going to go on and more opportunities are going to rise and I’m going to be happy very soon. Keep doing the work. Get after it and give this thing everything you have. 

Set the bar high and keep doing what it takes to get up there, and when you get there, keep pushing it higher. The work is never done. When the work dies, so do you. 

There is always a bigger reason to keep pushing forward.